from the inside

i don't know who to trust
no surprise
everyone feels so far away from me
heavy thoughts sift through dust
and the lies
trying not to break
but i'm so tired of this deceit
every time i try to make myself
get back up on my feet
all i ever think about is this
all the tiring time between
and how
trying to put my trust in you
just takes so much out of me

i take everything from the inside
and throw it all away
cause i swear / for the last time
i won't trust myself with you

tension is building inside
steadily
everyone feels so far away from me
heavy thoughts forcing their way
out of me

i won't trust myself with you
i won't waste myself on you
waste myself on you
you
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# Posted on Sunday, 21 October 2007 at 10:50 AM
Edited on Tuesday, 15 January 2008 at 10:00 AM

breaking the habit

memories consume.
like opening the wound.
I'm picking me apart again.
you all assume.
I'm safe here in my room.
(unless I try to start again)


I don't want to be the one.
the battles always choose.
cause inside I realize.
that I'm the one confused.


I don't know what's worth fighting for.
or why I have to scream.
I don't know why I instigate.
and say what I don't mean.
I don't know why I got this way.
I know it's not alright.
so I'm
breaking the habit tonight.


clutching my cure.
I tightly lock the door.
I try to catch my breath again.
I hurt much more.
than anytime before.
I had no options left again.


I'll pant it on the walls.
cause I'm the one at fault.
I'll never fight again.
and this is how it ends.


I don't know what's worth fighting for.
or why I have to scream.
but now Ii have some clarity.
to show you what I mean.
I don't know why I got this way.
I'll never be alright.
so I'm
breaking the habit
breaking the habit
tonight
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# Posted on Sunday, 21 October 2007 at 10:49 AM
Edited on Tuesday, 15 January 2008 at 10:01 AM

Crawling

Crawling in my skin
These wounds / they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming / confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling / I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence / I'm convinced
there's just too much pressure to take]
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting / reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence / I'm convinced
there's just too much pressure to take]
I've felt this way before
So insecure...




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# Posted on Sunday, 21 October 2007 at 10:47 AM
Edited on Sunday, 21 October 2007 at 11:12 AM

Linkin Park - What I've Done ,,,by girl.


In this farewell
There is no blood
There is no alibi
Cause I've drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies
So let mercy come
And wash away

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out
What I've become
Erase myself
And let go of
What I've done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands
Of uncertainty
So let mercy come
And wash away

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out
What I've become
Erase myself
And let go of
What I've done

For what I've done
I'll start again
And whatever thing
May come
Today this ends
I'm forgiving

What I've done

I'll face myself
To cross out
What I've become
Erase myself
And let go of
What I've done

What I've done

Forgiving what I've done
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# Posted on Tuesday, 16 October 2007 at 10:22 AM
Edited on Tuesday, 16 October 2007 at 10:34 AM

i m in .... THE TOP.....

i m in .... THE TOP.....
close my eyes in the silence of the night
I hear your voice in the whisper of the rain in my heart
I think of thousands of dark rainy nights
I dream of your face among the lightning flashes in the sky
My love , give me your light
All i need is you; hear the cry of my heart
Give me the scent of your rain
Touch my tears and kill my pain
Send me an angel for luck from your heart
Give me your rain forever, prince of rain
Forever , prince of rain
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# Posted on Sunday, 14 October 2007 at 8:19 PM

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