numb

i'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
i don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you

i've
become so numb
i can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
i'm becoming this
all i want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second i waste is more than i can take

but i know
i may end up failing too
but i know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you
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# Posted on Sunday, 21 October 2007 at 10:58 AM
Edited on Tuesday, 15 January 2008 at 9:52 AM

faint

i am
little bit of loneliness
a little bit of disregard
a handful of complaints
but i can't help the fact
that everyone can see these scars
i am
what i want you to want
what i want you to feel
but it's like
no matter what i do
i can't convince you
to just believe this is real
so i let go
watching you
turn your back like you always do
face away and pretend that i'm not
but i'll be here
cause you're all i got
i am
a little bit insecure
a little unconfident
cause you don't understand
i do what i can
but sometimes i don't make sense
i am
what you never want to say
but i've never had a doubt
it's like no matter what i do
i can't convince you
for once just to hear me out
so i let go
watching you
turn your back like you always do
face away and pretend that i'm not
but i'll be here
cause you're all i got

i can't feel
the way i did before
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
time won't heal
this damage anymore
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored


no
hear me out now
you're gonna listen to me
like it or not
right now
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# Posted on Sunday, 21 October 2007 at 10:57 AM
Edited on Tuesday, 15 January 2008 at 9:54 AM

Somewhere I belong

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find that I'm
Not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone] I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something i've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere/only to find that it's
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the
Way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
The fault is my own

I will never know
myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today

I wanna heal
I wanna feel like I'm
Somewhere I belong
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# Posted on Sunday, 21 October 2007 at 10:55 AM
Edited on Tuesday, 15 January 2008 at 10:04 AM

One Step Closer

(echo) Break...
I'm about to break (to break)
I need room to breathe... (x3)

I cannot take this anymore
Saying everything i've said before
All these words, they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear, the less you say
You'll find that out anyway

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish